i am addicted to ecstasy
my body yields
my soul flies free
my heart screams
CONTRACT AND RELEASE
and the way you smile
leaves me shivering
concentrate on the page
what does it say
"shut off your head, open up your eyes
rise silence rise"

I am better than what you made me believe

it's quiet in here
but the music is all me
my fingers trace the air
with the simplicity of the beat
up and around
back down and stop
your mouth lifts on one side
the side i love the most
i lean forward to kiss it
and fall into your deep deep heart endlessly

i escape one torture
and go straight to the next
your hands hold me tight
but it doesn't help me to relax
i try you know
really i do, everyday
but its hard to be myself
while trying to hide the pain